I am dropping my mind;
It has grown like a cancer in my brain,
It has built up walls that I cannot climb,
It has brought me fear and despair.
I am blowing it out;
It is the servant of the devil,
And the salesman of Heaven;
It is the swimming pool of confusion where I’ve drowned in a sputum.
Let me be only a witness,
The silent witness of my consumption;
I am fed up with myself,
And sending my thoughts to the fucking hell.
I am only a ghost,
A poor spectrum of my humanity,
And pretending to know something,
I hide behind trenches of prejudice.
I am purging my arrogant ego
under the blade of a scalpel
I am cutting my wrists
And dying to all that I judged as imperfection.
I am all the flaws that I see,
They are all my reflection;
A thousand broken pieces,
of this ugly mirror I’ve forged.
I am hurting the ones I love most,
I am stabbing my heart and poisoning my blood,
I am caressing the monster of vanity,
and feeding the flames of doubt.
I am leaving my mind behind;
To become only body, heart and soul;
I am knocking down all barriers,
that once made me proud.
I am dying as the one who selects and divides,
To reborn as the silent witness of my life.
This is my leap of faith.
To become truth, love and presence.